Songs

Changelog

Tue, 15 Sep 2026 13:21:39 GMT

2026-09-15T0921 · Our Whole Lives
2026-09-14T1348 · California
2026-09-03T1535 · Shake It Out - Florence and The Machine
2026-09-03T1357 · Cake By The Ocean
2026-09-03T1357 · Untitled
2026-09-01T1742 · Sunshine
2026-08-31T1518 · YOLOLolita
2026-08-12T2128 · Mon Coeur
2026-08-12T2124 · Untitled 1
2026-08-12T2120 · Don't Fear the Reaper
2026-08-12T2119 · Untitled
2026-08-11T1620 · Against Me - Borne on the FM Waves of the Heart
2026-08-05T1654 · _atlas
2026-08-05T1547 · Paramore - Misery Business
2026-07-28T1604 · The Outfield - Your Love
2026-07-28T1542 · Radiohead - High and Dry
2026-07-28T1542 · Blues Traveller - Hook
2026-07-24T1751 · Vampire
2026-07-24T1733 · Good For You
2026-07-24T1725 · You Can't Catch Me Now
2026-07-24T1724 · Police - Message In A Bottle
2026-07-24T1704 · Killing Me Softly
2026-07-24T1659 · The Cure
2026-07-24T1652 · STP - Plush
2026-07-24T1121 · Boys of Summer

Our Whole Lives

Tue, 15 Sep 2026 13:21:39 GMT

Original demo 2011-01-18 “ourWholeLives.mp3” could not be found.FAm5D5F/C8F23214<1/4>F[13321]Am[577555]D[55777]F/C[8 8 10 10 10](Intro / Verse 1)4/4F / / / / / / / Am / / / / / / / / I will never be happyI will never be satisfiedNo matter how good life getsI will never be contentNo matter how I tryMy whole lifeThere's a sickness in my brainSoul beset by chemical stainsMind played by video gamesAnd good drink I don't abstainYes this is the life I leadI know others aren't as sweet Or as priviledged as meBut I still feelIncomplete(Pre-chorus)D / / / F/C / / / Am / / / / / / / So [D] turn off the TV [F/C]Turn off the [Am] radioTake the [D] back roads [F/C]Get off the freeway [Am] rodeo (Chorus)And [D] fly me [F/C] to the [Am] moonYea [D] take us [F/C] somewhere [Am] soon(Verse 2)F / / / / / / / Am / / / / / / / / I am filled with dispairIt's not fear that has me scaredNor failure I fearNor the loss of one dearLoneliness lost its holdMany ages agoRejectionJust a matter of tasteBut this country breeds contemptOur arrogance undreamtThe American DreamHas been rescinded(Pre-chorus)[D][F2][Am]So turn off the brain washturn off the remote controlLearn to think on your own Not from a goodamn reality showAnd fly me to the moonYea take us somewhere soon(Verse 1 redux)Or we will never be happyWe will never be satisfiedNo matter how good life getsWe will never be contentNo matter how we tryOur whole livesOur whole lives

our whole lives (better drums)

Tue, 15 Sep 2026 13:20:57 GMT

California

Mon, 14 Sep 2026 17:48:00 GMT

Original demo: c. 2014-11-05 Fsus2/Bb8Dmin118Fmaj7/A7F6sus8Am/Bb8Dmin5Dsus25Fsus2/Bb[8 8 10 10 ]Dmin11[0 0 10 10 8]Fmaj7/A[7 7 10 10]F6sus[8 8 12]Am/Bb[8 12 10]Dmin[057760]Dsus2[057755]Intro / BridgeFsus2/Bb F6sus Am/Bb(Verse 1)Baby blue eyesprettiest I have seenCalifornia Bring her back to me Cause I can't make it on my ownCaliforniaBring my baby home(Chorus)I've been this down beforeAnd I can't take this no moreI've been down more than I Will admit to you tonight(Riff)Baby blue eyesLying through her teeth California Bring her back to me(Chorus)(Bridge)And I won't be broken downI won't be taken outI made many mistake I forgetI can't regret what's not yet(Last verse)Baby blue eyes crying in her sleepcalifornia only in my dreams Cause I have made it on my ownCaliforniashe has made her home(Chorus)I've been this down to longI must be tall and strong And learn to live my lifewithout these promises we made

Sunshine

Tue, 01 Sep 2026 21:42:53 GMT

Original demo E9A9C#m9Amaj5Amaj/G#4Key of C#m 110 bpmE[0 11 9 9]A[x 0 11 9 9 ]C#m[9 11 11 9 9]Amaj[5 7 7 6 5 5]Amaj/G#[4 7 7 6](Intro)3/4 | | | |E / / / / / A / / / / / x3Turn: (C#) (E) (G#) (F#) / / (G#) (F#) (E) E / / / / / A / / / / /She is my sunshineShe makes everything alrightShe floats in the moonlight{turn}She's my sweet babyI love her like I love lifeTry to talk sometimes, and the words don't come out rightI was blind till she showed me her light {turn}She's my sweet babyC#m / / / / / Amaj / / / / / Amaj/G# How good must a woman beTo make this old dog seeThat she might be the one for meIf I tried E / / / / / A / / / / / x3 & turn(Solo)Sunshine Key of E (C#m) 3/4 110 BPM Intro and Verse: E E A A x3 (C# E G#m) F# V1 V2 Chorus: C#m C#m Amaj (Amaj G# A) x3 V3 Chorus Bridge Em F#m A x3 A A Outro Verse End on E

phoenix

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 23:25:53 GMT

Opposite of Love

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 23:20:09 GMT

Most of these tracks were recorded between 2009 and 2014 when I was in my 30's, although some of them, such as Janies Song and Utopia were written in the late 90s. Most all of these tracks could be considered semi-autobiographical portraits of my various dysfunctional relationships.
Janies Song
Utopia
Crazy
Else
Letter
California
Pantydropper
Sunshine
Polyamourous

Production Notes

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 22:56:04 GMT

Most of my legacy tracks were recorded on a PC with older versions of Cakewalk Sonar, with Reason instruments for the MIDI instrumentation. I've since switched to a wholly Mac-centric workflow, and have been forced to do a bunch of conversions through Cakewalk Next, although my preferred DAW right now is Ableton, even though I'm just using the Lite version, which is limited to 8 tracks. There's also been a change to the way Reason VSTs work, which is forcing me to recreate patches and migrate MIDI files into the DAW. Annoying, but not quite as bad as the fact that certain instrument packs were part of Refill kits that I've lost track of over the years.

Atlas

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 22:50:09 GMT

Welcome to my songbook! This notebook/website has got collections of my unreleased tracks, along with chord books and other resources I'm putting out there for collaboration. My current goal is to 'finish' the tracks under the Opposite of Love folder, which are mainly songs I wrote in my teens and twenties. Some of them are still just demos of me playing and singing guitar, but others have been expanded and refined into multitrack instrumentation. I don't consider any of them finished; guitar is my primary instrument, and the piano/keys/synth, drum and bass tracks aren't where I like them. I'm hoping to rectify that by sharing these tracks with my friends and collaborating with them to be able to play them live, and also motivate me to get them cleaned up and put out as something I can be proud of.
If you're interested in how I put this site together, you can read the Tech Notes, and if you're interested in my rig you can check out the Production Notes. Thanks for checking out my songs! M. B. Wade

Tech Notes

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 22:49:43 GMT

This notebook was built using Obsidian which is an app I use extensively for all of my note taking. They have a wonderful library of community plugins, and I'm using one called Chord Sheets to do most of the heavy lifting.
Instead of using Obsidian's paid sync and publish features, I'm using HTML exporter and some custom code to fix some issues with the plugin export process. Commited changes go to Github and are deployed on a simple Cloudflare page.

sunshine

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 22:05:34 GMT

else

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 20:25:06 GMT

Polyamourous

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 19:28:35 GMT

Orig. demo c. 2010-07-20 C10Dm10Am7G5FDmin12Drop DC[10 10 10 12]Dm[12 x 10 10 10]Am[7779]G[555]F[333]Dmin[12 12 12](Intro/ Verse)4/4 | | | |C / / / Dm / / / Am / / / / / / /I might not be the man you want me toI'm past the point that I will tryThe thrill is gone it's done /There is no reason whybut there is something i must tell you nowI'll have you know that there was no one elseIt's just the possibilityA wise man told me 'son, don't settle down you're young.Why buy the cow when you get the milk for free'(Chorus)4/4 | | | |C G / / / / / / Dm F / / / / / /Said don't settle down /while your time is right you've got to play around /while you're in your primeSaid don't hang your hat till the time is rightthat's the reason dear I can't be here...tonight(Verse){Solo1}It may just be you'll be the best I hadJust a chance I have to takeThe world is big, we're young I can't say that I'm doneWon't let the good get in the way of the great{Chorus}{Break}( Open D {D# D C A F A} ){Chorus}

Utopia

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:31:27 GMT

Original demo 2014-11-14 F134211<1/5>C321<1/4>G213<1/5>Am231<1/4>3/4 time w swingIntro3/4 | | | | F / / C / / G / / / / / /{Verse1} 3/4 | | | | C / / / / / G / / / / / /Am / / / / / F / / / / / / He told her his storyHe told her his liesand now she is tellingthe bastard goodbyeSo he's C Gdown At the stationAm FLooking for someone newC GDon't know what he wants Am Fbut he knows what he'll do(Chorus)3/4 | | | | F / / C / / G / / / / / /And he is lonely again and aloneHis Utopia is no moreBroken heart blackened to the boneHe's done it againC G Am F ...(Verse)She gave him everythingA man could ask for and someAll she wanted was to be his only oneNow he's down at a downtown barLooking for someone newDon't know what he wants Just knows what he'll do(Chorus)And he is lonely again and aloneHis Utopia is no moreBroken heart blackened to the boneHe's done it again

Pantydropper

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:30:18 GMT

Original demo 2010-06-04

Letter

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:28:35 GMT

Orig demo c. 2010-03-25 C#m74A5E7G#4F#m77D10C#m7[x46454] A[577600] E[x7999x]G#[466500]F#m7[x79787]D[10 12 12 11 0 0 ](Intro)[C#m7] [A] [C#m7] [A] [C#m7] [A] [E] [G#](V1)[C#m7][A] I've been thinking [C#m7][A] lately, [C#m7][A] What we [E] did to each [G#] other.[C#m7][A] We both knew it'd be [C#m7][A] a fling[C#m7][A]Not the best [E] we'd [G#] ever had[C#m7] I was wrong [A] [C#m7] [A] [C#m7] [A] [E] [G#](V2)[C#m7] [A] I keep your [C#m7] pictures[A] in my room[C#m7] [A] I hide [E] them from my [G#]new girlfriend [C#m7] [A] I don't want you [C#m7] to think [A] I'm not [C#m7] being true [A]Cause you [E] got yours [G#] too, I know(Chorus)[C#m7] If I could just [A] fly away tonight [E] to [G#] sleep in your arms [C#m7] If I could be [A] there right now I would [E] you know I [G#] would.(Solo 1)[C#m7] [A] [C#m7] [A] [C#m7] [A] [E] [G#](V3)I got the places we wentSeem so empty with you goneI see the people you knewAll we do is talk about (Chorus)your life and all the ways you changed oursas if I could forget youIf I could be there right now I wouldYou know I would(Break) [C#m7] [E] [F#m7] [D]Maybe that's a lie I tell myself to get through these daysMaybe it's alright you're gone and so far away(Solo 2)(V1 Repeat)

Janies Song

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:27:46 GMT

Original demo c. 2009-02-18 C#m4C#m/G#4E7B7A5C#m[x46654]C#m/G#[4x6654]E[07999]B[799877]A[577655](Intro)[C#m][C#m/G#] x4(Verse 1)[C#m] Janie lives for [E] just one [B] thing[C#m] The intoxication that the [E] night time [B] brings[C#m] Love her so much when she gets [E] stoned [B][C#m] Love her so much, she'll [E] never know [B][C#m] Oh oh [E] [B] why [A] can't you see[C#m][C#m/G#] {Bass walks C#/G#/B/C#/E/F#/G#}(Verse 2)[C#m] Love her so much in this shit [E] town [B][C#m] I pick her up but it just [E] drags her [B] down[C#m] Want her too much [E] to let her [B] know [C#m] Wamt her so [E] much, she'll [B] never know (Chorus)[C#m] Oh oh [E] oh no[B] why [A] can't you[C#m] see [E] [B] What it's [A] doing to you and to [C#m] me [E] [B] oh whoa [A] oh oh[A] [B](Solo)[C#m][C#m/G#] x4(Repeat Verse 1)(Chorus)

Crazy

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:26:57 GMT

Original demo c. 2010-06-10 G/A4G/FCD25Em7EDG5FA7Drop DG/A[x054]G/F[3x54]C[x3505]D2[x5707]Em[07x08]E[22x032]D[000232]G[555]F[333]A[777](Intro)G/A G/A (Verse)I will [G/A] do anything for [G/F] you[G/A] All you have to do is [G/F] ask[C][D][Em] [C] Why are playing these [D] games again [G/A][C][D][Em] [C] I thought we'd left them [D2] in the [E] past [D]I need to know[G/A] if there's something on your [G/F] mindI need to know[G/A] if you want me to go or if you need more [G/F] time[C][D][Em] [C] I don't know if you [D] want me [G/A] around[C][D][Em] [C] I'm trying to listen [D2] but we don't [E] talk now [D](Chorus)But I'm [F] crazy [G] for your [A] love [G]And I'm [F] guilty of not [G] showing you [A] enough [G]And I [F] need your [G] body like a [A] drug [G]And I'll [F] be [G] right here waitingG/A G/A

pantydropper

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:22:37 GMT

Utopia

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:22:37 GMT

janies song

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:22:34 GMT

letter

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:22:33 GMT

ourWholeLives

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:22:32 GMT

pre-traumatic stress (2008 demo)

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:22:31 GMT

match dot com

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:22:30 GMT

crazy

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 18:22:28 GMT

california

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 14:20:25 GMT

Else

Wed, 22 Jul 2026 14:11:16 GMT

(this seems like it is a good intro to Run and Hide)You say that I lost what I had when I wantedYou say that I had all I want but I flaunted it awayYou floating like a feather in a hurricaneYou walk around like you don't even know my nameI was just kidding all this timeYou say that I lost what I had when I wanted ityou say that I had all I want cause I flaunted awayYou ... If my angels lost their wings and fell behindIf I hurt that litttle world and I lost my mindCould not be forget but I'd rather notAdn I could be someone else but I'd rather not.All this timeCold skin waiting break my heartI was just kidding all this timeIf my angels lost their wings.

polyamourous

Tue, 21 Jul 2026 22:21:20 GMT

Run and Hide

Tue, 07 Jul 2026 15:14:06 GMT

You can run You can't hide You can run away But you can't hideYou can run away if it makes you better And I won't mind I'll be finePeople been asking questions since you went away What can I say at all? Nothing at allBut I won't stand for you any more It's been ten long years it matters not at allNice of you to run before the shit hit the fan I was standing there You were not around All the blood was in my handsAnd it's your fault and you know it But I'm not here to place the blame I would stuff the life right out you now If I thought it would change a thingAnd I won't stand for you anymoreIt's been too long now it matters not at allNot going to fight it, Face myself alone my way

Pre-traumatic stress - Overflow

Tue, 07 Jul 2026 14:47:51 GMT

polyamourous

Tue, 21 Jul 2026 22:21:20 GMT

Run and Hide

Tue, 07 Jul 2026 15:14:06 GMT

Our Whole Lives

Fri, 03 Jul 2026 11:50:15 GMT

FAm5D5F28F[13321]Am[577555]D[55777]F2[8 8 10 10 10](Intro / Verse 1)[F][Am]I will never be happyI will never be satisfiedNo matter how good life getsI will never be contentNo matter how I tryMy whole lifeThere's a sickness in my brainSoul beset by chemical stainsMind played by video gamesAnd good drink I don't abstainYes this is the life I leadI know others aren't as sweet Or as priviledged as meBut I still feelIncomplete(Pre-chorus)So [D] turn off the TV [F2]Turn off the [Am] radioTake the [D] back roads [F2]Get off the freeway [Am] rodeo (Chorus)And [D] fly me [F2] to the [Am] moonYea [D] take us [F2] somewhere [Am] soon(Verse 2)[F][Am] I am filled with dispairIt's not fear that has me scaredNor failure I fearNor the loss of one dearLoneliness lost its holdMany ages agoRejectionJust a matter of tasteBut this country breeds contemptOur arrogance undreamtThe American DreamHas been rescinded(Pre-chorus)[D][F2][Am]So turn off the brain washturn off the remote controlLearn to think on your own Not from a goodamn reality showAnd fly me to the moonYea take us somewhere soon(Verse 1 redux)Or we will never be happyWe will never be satisfiedNo matter how good life getsWe will never be contentNo matter how we tryOur whole livesOur whole lives